Where did my waist go?

I got on the scale this morning.  Don’t ask me why because I knew it had not changed.  Thankfully I have lost all my pregnancy weight but its the weight I packed on before that that is hanging on.  I’m actually surprised I haven’t gained recently based on the amount of Little Debbie cakes I’ve been eating.  I’m a stress eater and a closet eater.  Things at work have been stressful on top of everyday life and caring for a baby but if I hide the cakes and eat them when no one is looking they don’t count right?

The weather is getting warmer so hopefully that will motivate me to get outside and walk.  I specifically wanted a stroller so I could walk with my son so hopefully we’ll do that.

Getting dressed in the morning is not fun.  It’s not that I mind buying the larger size clothes because these days with the average size woman being a 14-16 they do have very nice clothes with the most recent styles in these larger sizes.  But I’m sorta in between sizes and based on my build…….if it fits my waist it hangs off my hips, if it fits my hips it is tight on my waist and tends to squeeze the fat up to form a inner-tube around my waist.  I changed shirts twice this morning because I can’t stand to SEE the inner tube and I felt the shirt I had on stop right at my stomach and highlighted it…….yikes!

I keep saying I’m going to take my clothes to a seamtress and have the altered but I never seem to find the time at least time when I don’t have the baby with me.  And because of this I end up wearing a pair of nice jeans with a big top or sweater to work which makes me feel so unprofessional even though I’m dressed nicer than half the women in my office.  I like looking professional because it makes me feel professional.   But alas in my opinion it’s hard to look professional in plus size.

I never thought I would ever be a plus size woman.  I was always skinny but as time went on and the things that life threw at me…I slowly started to gain weight.  I’m not obese at all.  I’m 5′7 and 181 pounds which to me is just overweight but when you are small boned and the weight is mostly in the middle (still have fairly skinny arms and legs) it just makes the weight look worse and the clothes harder to fit.  Oh and also I’m large chested (even when I was skinny)so even if I lost weight I would probably still have to wear larger shirts.

Oh well………the weather is warmer so again I say I’m going to try and get motivated to walk.  I want my husband to look at me like he used to.  I’m hoping for a trip to the beach this summer…..and I don’t want bystanders to think I’m a beached whale!

Getting Organized

DAY ONE – GET ORGANIZED:  I went to Walmart today and bought some plastic containers so I could start organizing my craft area.  I have a big pile of fabric where I had planned to do some sewing this past summer but got so overwhelmed doing scrapbooks I never got around to trying to sew.  Let’s just say I’ve never really sewn much (sewing involves instructions) but I was ambitious this summer while I was on maternity leave.  Anyway, I plan on going to Hobby Lobby tomorrow and get the plastic drawers that are perfect size for 12×12 papers.  I think if I get more organized I will feel better while I’m sitting in there.  Not to mention I’ve already found a bunch or stickers and stuff I didn’t realize I had……saves me from going out and buying MORE STUFF! 

I wish I had a dedicated room for all my crafts.  Before the baby came I had a room.  When we moved into the house we’d just lost a baby and weren’t really sure we’d be able to have one.  I picked my favorite room in the house to be my craft room and would always say…when we have a baby this will be their room.  As soon as I got pregnant again I started re-organizing my guest room to move the craft table in there.  I guess I could have taken over the computer room but my husband is always in here and I like to be alone when I’m creating.  LOL.  I love my baby but I miss my room.  So I have this small guest room with a queen sized bed, my mom’s childhood dresser and chest of drawers and my craft tables that I have in the shape of a U.  It’s pretty crowded in there.  I will probably get a daybed to have in there instead of a bed.  It’s not like we have overnight guests nor would they want to sleep in there with all my stuff but every once in awhile my niece will want to spend the night so I like to have an extra bed.

I’m also attempting to clean off the top of our computer desk as I sit here.  Everytime I clean it off though my husband piles more stuff then I pile more stuff and it’s back to being cluttered again.  I have a habit of putting mail in a pile then when the pile gets so big…I file the stuff.  It works for me but looks sloppy even though the only ones who see it are myself and my husband.

As soon as I finish this organizing I will finalize my latest paper bag album.  If I can get it just right I think it will be cute.  I’m calling it “Grandma’s Purse” and it will look like an old handbag.  Will post pictures later.  The inside is done it’s just the cover that I want to get just right.